5 Weeks & 3 Days...

How I am feeling... Well yesterday, was kind of scary. I had a bit of spotting and I was crampy. The spotting was only one restroom incidence and very scant. I was having aversions to all food, I didn't eat until like 4pm. I was nauseated at the thought of eating. I drank so much water though. 

Today, I feel slightly crampy still, I know

It's common in the beginning of pregnancy, it's just a scary symptom! I've been dizzy, had heartburn, my boobs hurt so bad I can't even lay on my stomach, I feel like I'm starving, like I need to carb load! I'm tired, but have energy if that makes sense? I pee a whole lot, because I've been drinking tons of water, seriously, been through 3 cases of water in the last 4 days! I have lower back pain, but mostly in part of being Constipated! I go between being constipated and having diarrhea... TMI I know it! Nobody reads my blog anyways, more if a personal journal anyways!

But yes my first appt. to confirm my pregnancy and give a a due date and all is Monday at 2:20! It still seems so far from now, being Friday! The anticipation drives me crazy. I'm a worrier. So I have been a mental case! Worrying and stressing out and thinking the worse. I've never waited so long to see a doctor after finding out I was pregnant. I've always seen the doctor the next day! Have I mentioned how crazy I've been? Mood swings like crazy! Happy, sad, laughing, crying, up and down... It's crazy. At the flip of a switch/drop of a hat! :) Hopefully my hormones will level out soon. I cried watching the movie The Incredibles with the kids, watching Despicable Me right now, laughing so hard, but it will probably make me cry too! Also, this may sound weird, but my hair, it's so luscious and full & soft & silly & hardly falling out anymore at all! I'm use to showering and at the end of the shower I have a handful of hair that fell out! So I've been pretty happy with my hair, I haven't styled it, it's just thrown in a ponytail but I'm loving it!

So anyways, I'm trying to enjoy everything this pregnancy, savoring it in a way! I want to give birth naturally with no epidural. I want to labor at home as long as I can and hope my water breaks at home on its own, as the doctors have always had to pop it for me! I want to experience everything.. Full on. Head on. As this will be my last pregnancy & child, so long as all goes well! :)

Til next rant...